The time I got fired was also the first time I knew I heard God’s voice…

Let me take you back…

When I first moved to Los Angeles, I landed a fun job working off Robertson Boulevard in West Hollywood. Back then, working on Robertson was a cool flex lol. I had a sweet discount on designer clothes and even met one of my close friends working there.

After few weeks, the company offered me a management position. I was flattered they saw my potential so quickly, and I eagerly accepted. Over the next fews months I built a consistent client book and even had a somewhat regular client in Kelly Kapoor. IYKYK

Well fast forward and five months into my sweet early twenties job — I got fired, abruptly.

When it happened, that was it… my last day and last paycheck. No two-week notice and no time to plan ahead or interview for other jobs.

Y’all. I did not have a backup plan. Admittedly I was young, dumb, unprepared, living paycheck to paycheck, and frivolously spending on clothes I didn’t need. I had no savings and my parents couldn’t afford to bail me out financially if I needed consistent help. Not only that, I had just signed a year lease with a new roommate. I couldn’t leave her hanging but how was I supposed to pay my rent or any of my other bills without a job?

As I drove home I sobbed my eyes out. I had never been fired from a job. How could this happen? How am I going to pay for anything? What am I supposed to do now?

And then — while listening to the radio *because back then Spotify wasn’t a thing*, Nicki Minaj’s song “Moment 4 Lyfe” started playing. Something about the lyrics struck my heart and mind:

In this very moment, I’m king

In this very moment, I slay Goliath with a sling

This very moment, I bring

Put it on everything that I will retire with the ring

And I will retire with the crown, yes

No I’m not lucky I’m blessed, yes

Clap for the heavyweight champ, me

But I couldn’t do it all alone, we

It might sound crazy but in that moment it felt like God was speaking directly to me through the lyrics. It was as if He was reassuring me I would be okay, and He would be with me. Instantly, the heaviness lifted. A deep, unexplainable peace — and even joy, washed over me. It made absolutely no sense given the circumstances. But that’s when I knew for certain, I felt God’s presence. I knew regardless of what happened next, I’d be okay.

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